Like most times in my life, when things are out of my control, I clean. I know that sounds a little strange, but cleaning is something I can control. I can purge my negative emotions and control the chaos by restoring order to my surroundings. Unfortunately for me, this time around, time is not on my side. I have been so swamped with things that need to get done, that deep, purging cleaning has to be put on the back burner. Baseball just started for Sunshine and it's also recital time for dance not to mention swimming. Then there is karate, for Monster, which coincides with baseball. That means the kids eat PB & J for dinner, which in turn makes me feel guilty that I'm not making them super healthy meals. My schedule does not look promising for any sort of break until school is over. Then, I won't want to take the time to deep clean because, well, it's summer vacation. Who wants to take the time to clean on summer vacation? So, I'm left feeling like my world is spinning out of control.
Then it rained. There is something about the rain when it's hot and sticky out that just makes everything better. The kids and I went out and we danced and ran in the rain. It was the first time in probably 2 months that I actually felt free. I felt calm. There was so much joy that one couldn't help be consumed by it. Even my neighbors felt it (which I know because they were smiling and laughing from the cover of their garage). Such pure happiness can't help but to spread. When we came in, things were the same as when we went out, but I was different. I was lighter.
Sometimes, you think that it's going to take something big to break you out of what you're feeling. Thankfully, God sometimes just opens the skies and knows you just need a little rain to clear your head. "Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass. It's about learning to dance in the rain."