My friends know it's bad because yesterday I sent a text asking a friend to come over so I could cry. Anyone who knows me knows that a) I don't ask for help and b) I don't cry. I am truly blessed though that I do have friends who drop everything and come over just to give me a hug. This post may sound like a lot of whining. It is, but it's also my therapy for getting over this. Sometimes, you need to lay it all out. Last year around this time I gave a friend some advice. "Take time, feel it, have a pity party and then get over it." Writing has always been my way of "getting over it". I have so many blessings that's it difficult to write all the bad stuff without it bringing out the good. This post is my pity party and now I'm going to get over it. There's no choice. I have people who depend on me. I've taken my time. It will probably take me getting an actual shower in to truly move on from this, but it will happen, eventually.
...it doesn't just pour, it's a damned hurricane. People say everything happens at once. Sadly, this is the case this past month. Life here has turned upside down. I'm trying to keep things as normal and even keel for the kids, but I'm about one step away from a heart attack. I try very hard not to dwell on the bad and change things around and make something good. When it all piles up, I find it more and more difficult. It is no secret that with this new school year right around the corner, things here are bit more tense because of last year's experience, but we've been working on that. I'd love to say it's all the little stuff that's building up, but, it's also some pretty darn big stuff. Last Monday, we had our backyard dug up because our neighbor's sewer line runs through our yard and it collapsed. Looking at the bright side, we have a good neighbor who is really great about it and willing to do anything to help get our yard back into shape. Another bright side, I have less to mow. It's still a huge mess though. Yesterday, the gas company came, out of the blue, and shut off the gas to dig up our gas line. No gas means no hot water, which means no shower, no laundry, no dishes. Bright side of this? It's not winter. That's all I got. There are two huge holes in my front yard. It rained last night, so the huge backhoe in my yard has made ruts. They have been working on this for 3 hours. Sunshine woke up at 5:45 am and Monster at 6:50. Both would actually take naps today, but they aren't done working which is making it too loud to nap. I planned an outing for this afternoon with friends and I'm the only one who is now not going to be able to make it. Best news though is that we may not have gas again tonight and then I need to rearrange my schedule for tomorrow to be home for them to turn the gas on. I'm finding it very, very difficult to stay positive about this. I'm watching my work pile up and my time running out. It doesn't help at all that I need to go to the doctor tonight and they are going to, once again, try to talk me into spinal injections, which I'm completely against. And I'll have to go there dirty.
My friends know it's bad because yesterday I sent a text asking a friend to come over so I could cry. Anyone who knows me knows that a) I don't ask for help and b) I don't cry. I am truly blessed though that I do have friends who drop everything and come over just to give me a hug. This post may sound like a lot of whining. It is, but it's also my therapy for getting over this. Sometimes, you need to lay it all out. Last year around this time I gave a friend some advice. "Take time, feel it, have a pity party and then get over it." Writing has always been my way of "getting over it". I have so many blessings that's it difficult to write all the bad stuff without it bringing out the good. This post is my pity party and now I'm going to get over it. There's no choice. I have people who depend on me. I've taken my time. It will probably take me getting an actual shower in to truly move on from this, but it will happen, eventually.
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