I, on the other hand, am a complete emotional wreck. The thought of school makes me sick. Literally. It makes me physically sick as well as completely depressed. I just want to keep my kids here with me forever and protect them against the world. To protect them against bad situations, because, in my mind, school is a bad situation. I'm trying to have a different attitude, for their sake and my own.
Yesterday, we found out who the kids' teachers are. After we got home Monster said, "Mommy, I feel like the weight of the world has been lifted off my shoulders." He was much more stressed than he let on. He's a bit bummed because the teacher he wanted is no longer teaching third grade. Actually, she's no longer a teacher at the school along with the Kindergarten teacher Sunshine really wanted. He's happy with who he has though. I'm happy that he's actually in a class that has a teacher. Meet the teacher night is Friday and they still haven't hired one of the third grade teachers. I would be a complete wreck if that was his class. Sunshine has a teacher who is new to our school but has a reputation at the school she taught at as one of the best teachers ever. That makes her pretty darned happy, and me as well!
I have no idea what this school year is going to bring. I do know that I have to make it better than previous years. Me. I need to figure out a way to let go of the past and work on making this year the best it can be. They deserve that. I should probably start by not crying each morning when my kids wake up. Yeah, I'm going to miss them that much. I truly treasure my time with them. Before I know it, they will be off to college and on their own. All I can do is enjoy them now and help make their lives full and loved.